Monday Musings: 12.14.2020
Life is Messy, Stressy, and a Wee Bit Depressy
Long time no see, my Dear Readers (however few of you there are).
It's been 84 years since I last posted...
Okay, it's technically been 1 year and 8 months since I last posted, about my trip to Scotland no less, and I wish I had more to go with a reason why. But, if I'm being real with you, I don't.
Short answer: life got busy and I got wrapped up living a daily routine that has not satisfied me in any way, shape, or form for a while now. My life started shifting around me and I felt like I was just floating in choppy waters, trying to scoop the water out fast enough to not drown. I dove straight into other ventures and outlets - dancing, working out, trying my hardest to find something that was MINE and for ME.
Add in the sprinkling of a not so great living situation, and the end of that year was one I was more than happy to leave behind and move on from.
And then 2020 happened.
I'm not going to rehash everything that has happened this year. When I look back at 2019 and realize it was only a year ago, I am mystified. How did we do this? Look how close we're all standing to one another. SIX FEET, SUSAN, I MEAN IT!
We're all exhausted. Quarantine Fatigue is a real thing and it is taking its toll on all of us. I'm angry and frustrated, feeling like I'm back in high school doing all the work on a group project because I'm the only one taking it seriously.
I'm over it - I'm sure you are as well.
With all that being said, I've found myself going through an emotional ringer of physical and mental stress, being depressed, and then trying to force myself into being less stressed and less depressed...wash, rinse, repeat.
It probably didn't help (no, it definitely didn't help) that I've been working three jobs, seven days a week, with little to no other kind of creative outlets to boost myself. At some point, I'll go into the whys, but it is not this day.
What I will tell you is that there is only so many times that your friends, family, and the universe will bonk you on the forehead like a V-8 commercial before you finally recognize that, huh, maybe this isn't the best use of your time and energy.
*pictures every person I know rolling their eyes at my Captain Obvious statement*
This brings me to why I'm picking up my pen again (so to speak). With 2020 having put a kibosh on the creative outlets I had before, (RIP West Coast Swing) I needed to find some other avenue to feed the imaginative part of myself, rather than just working non-stop.
Self-care comes in many different forms. Finding what works best for your own personal self-care should take time, but it also shouldn't feel like some arduous, Herculean task that's been plopped onto your shoulders. It should feel like a release - something that is a natural extension of yourself.
Which leaves me with reading...writing...and talking.
Hence the reinvigoration that is currently taking place. The current plan is to post to the blog around three days a week in three brand new segments that I feel like are perfect tethers of my personality.
Posts that feature thoughts, comments, and concerns - what's been happening in the world around me, something interesting that I've discovered, or some topic that has me rambling because I need to tell somebody.
Ideally, once COVID has been relegated to the past and we are able to travel again, these will be posts of my own travels. I will be finishing my Scotland blogs, as well as some for Oregon, but on the off-times when there is no traveling happening, these posts will be a kind of travel destination bucket list, filled with gorgeous photos so that you all can have wanderlust with me.
Finally, we have Fiction Fridays - everyone in my life, whether they're a casual acquaintance or close friend and family member, knows that I read...a lot. These posts will include a round-up of what I've read that week, more in-depth, spotlight reviews of individual books, TBR (To Be Read) Lists, any book hauls I might succumb to (sorry, Mom!), as well as my personal reading recommendations and any readathons I decide to participate in.
I'm trying to end 2020 on a high, and I hope you'll join me in this journey. At the very least, I hope that I can bring you a smile or laugh, since the world desperately needs as much positivity and light as it can get.
See you on Wednesday.